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Treat yourself to a glass of wine this evening and this excerpt from How to Save a Life, the sweeping love story by Eva Carter.

Joel’s heart stops as the rest of the world welcomes the start of a new century. What happens next will change the course of three people’s lives forever …

It’s nearly midnight on the eve of the millennium when eighteen-year-old Joel’s heart stops. A school friend, Kerry, performs CPR for almost twenty exhausting minutes, ultimately saving Joel’s life, while her best friend Tim freezes, unable to help.

That moment of life and death changes the course of all three lives over the next two decades: each time Kerry, Joel and Tim believe they’ve found love, discovered their vocation, or simply moved on, their lives collide again.

Structured around the four simple steps involved in CPR, Eva Carter’s How to Save a Life is both a love story and an exploration of what it means to be brave – because bravery isn’t just about life or death decisions; it’s also about how to keep on living afterwards …

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Chapter 1: Kerry

31 December 1999

Six minutes. I have six minutes left to be kissed.

Three hundred and sixty seconds and counting, if I don’t want to end another year – let’s face it, an entire millennium – as the only seventeen-year-old in Brighton who has never snogged another human being.

Most of the girls in the sixth form have gone all the way. You can tell from the way they move: dancing wildly on the shingle, wearing heels that keep sinking into the gaps between the pebbles, unsteady and sexy and—

‘Which do you think will implode first, the National Grid or air traffic control?’ Tim says, passing me the can of Diamond White.

When I raise it to my lips, all that’s left is apple froth. I look up at the sky. ‘You probably shouldn’t be quite so excited about the idea of Armageddon.’

He grins. ‘I can’t help it if I crave a bit of drama sometimes.’

You and me both.

‘We don’t have long to wait to get our share of it.’

This time next December, I’ll be at Manchester Uni. And, impossible as it seems now, the odds are that by then I will have been kissed – and hopefully a lot more. The prospect of finally losing my virginity isn’t even the most exciting thing about the year 2000. Because in a year’s time, I will be training as a doctor. With a bit of luck, and the right questions on his physics exam paper, Tim will be doing the same.

‘If the millennium bug doesn’t wipe us out …’ he looks at his Swatch, ‘five minutes from now. Makes me feel quite reckless, being on the brink of disaster.’

Reckless isn’t Tim’s style, but his eyes are bright: I can see the beach fires the hippies have lit reflected in them. Except it’s not just the flames. There’s something else in his face, an intensity . . .

Oh shit.

He’s going to try to kiss me.

He mustn’t.

Maybe it wouldn’t be the absolute worst thing, if we did it in private. We’ve rehearsed slings and burn dressings on each other, so why not kissing? Both of us want to be prepared for when it really matters. Practice makes perfect.

Except I don’t think he’s thinking of this as a rehearsal …

I move backwards, out of reach, and I break eye-contact, staring resolutely over Tim’s shoulder to where Joel and his mates are having a knockabout on the Lawns, lit by the Victorian lamps that line the Prom. The frost has set the earth like concrete, but the boys don’t seem to notice. They’re too busy trying to outrun Joel, even though they know they never will.

He moves twice as fast as the others, the football always at his feet. He was in the same class as Tim and me, but we stayed on to do A levels, while he got signed for a football apprenticeship by the Dolphins FC. He’s one in a million. Everyone either wants to be him or be with him, me included. I think Tim might be the only person I know who doesn’t care about Joel one way or another.

‘… Perhaps we can blame the Pagans. You know, for deciding New Year should happen in December,’ Tim says, embarking on a new lecture. I let the words float over me. ‘Or I suppose it might have been the Romans.’

‘Maybe.’ I shift again, increasing the distance between us. Everything has to be clear for Tim: he’s one of the smartest kids in the sixth form, but sometimes he’s also the densest, and I can’t let him convince himself it’s a good idea to kiss me.

Kiss me.

I imagine saying those words to Joel. Let myself believe, just for a moment, that instead of laughing in my face, he might do as I ask.

On the Lawns, Ant makes a clumsy attempt to tackle Joel but falls over his own big feet, and Joel vaults across his best friend’s legs to score again.

The ball flies over two Gap sweatshirts laid as goalposts.

Six–nil to Joel. I’ve been counting.

‘… But why didn’t they choose the summer solstice to mark a new year?’ A speck of cider foam sits on Tim’s top lip, and I’m about to lean over and brush it away. Except … what if he thinks I am flirting?

I want it to go back to how it’s been since we were seven: in and out of his garden and mine; every Tuesday, checking each other’s vital signs in the Scout Hall. I hate the new us: how he guffaws at my jokes when they’re not funny and gives me sideways looks as though he’s only just noticed that I’m female.

‘Summer solstice would make for a better party. Sacrificing virgins, roasting pigs. Or the other way round.’

I get so twitchy listening to his meandering monologues. I imagine walking away from him. Kicking off my sore Shelley’s heels. Heading on to the playing field, the icy blades of grass spiky through my tights.

In this other reality, I leap towards the ball like Bambi. Score a goal. Joel would embrace me in a victorious hug.

Louise Norman’s jaw – newly braced but sadly not wired shut – would drop, astonished at my daring.

My grace.

I’d settle for being surprising. For being noticed. At school, at home, here. Anywhere would do.

At the edge of my vision, Joel is running. And then he’s not.

He doesn’t trip, or throw out an arm to right himself or break his fall. Instead, he drops, face down, legs outstretched. The boy who fell to earth.

The others play on: Fat Matt does a double take when he gets possession of the ball, whoops as he propels it towards the neglected goal.

I wait for Joel to get up. What’s he playing at? He’s not a joker the way Ant is, and I can’t believe he’s risked injury by falling so clumsily. In his last year at school, before he got his big break with the Dolphins, Joel was the only one of the cool kids never to smoke or drink. Even tonight he’s stuck to orange juice …

Ant pivots back, calling out, ‘Come on, Joel, you knob,’ and when he reaches his friend, he nudges him with his big black shoe. Once. Twice. The third time is more of a kick.

Joel doesn’t move.

Certainty strikes me like lightning. I drop the can of cider – Tim is still waffling on about the satanic origin of Christian rituals – and though I fully intend to walk towards Joel, my legs have other ideas.

Even as I run across the Lawns, I’m cursing myself for being so obvious, but I can’t stop. After keeping my crush secret for nearly seven years, I’m about to blow it.

I speed up. Almost there.

Joel’s stillness makes me catch my breath. The other boys circle round him, shouting at him to get up. Ant frowns, and as I step into the circle, our eyes meet. I brace myself for mockery – Ant teased me on and off all through school – but instead, I glimpse panic.

‘What’s wrong with him?’ Ant asks.

‘He’s messing about,’ one of the lads says. I’m already kneeling down beside Joel, the grass sharp against my shins.

‘No,’ I say, ‘he’s not.’ My loud voice surprises all of us. ‘Be quiet. I need to listen, check how often he’s breathing.’

If he’s breathing.

ABC. The first-aiders’ alphabet flashes through my mind, anchoring me. I’ve been trained for this.

I lean in, close to Joel’s face. If he’s just blacked out, I should be able to feel the warmth of breath. But apart from the sweet smell of orange juice, there is nothing.

Airway. I tilt his chin, feeling the slight prickle of stubble under my fingertips. I part his lips with my fingers, no longer seeing him as the boy I fancy, but instead as a puzzle to be solved. Nothing seems to be blocking his throat. He should be breathing.

‘Ant. We need to move him, onto his back.’

Joel is heavy. A dead weight. But as we wrestle, I feel powerful. Joel’s on his side for a moment before he flops down onto the grass with an obscene smack.

‘Watch it!’ Fat Matt says. ‘His legs are insured for ten grand each.’

They’re worth nothing if he’s dead.

Breathing. His chest isn’t moving. Nothing is moving. Time has slowed, but my thoughts are faster, clearer than they’ve ever been.

I glance up. ‘One of you needs to run to the call box and phone 999. Ask for an ambulance. Tell them he’s not breathing. Tell them to come fast.’

The five boys stand there, goldfishing, as though I’m talking a foreign language.

‘Paddy, you go.’

He shrugs and kicks at the earth, as though he’s unsure whether to obey me and risk having the piss taken for the next year.

‘I’m serious. Go now.’ I get back to work, pulling Joel’s long, lean arms to his sides. ‘Run. And Matt – go and stand by the road. Try to flag down a police car.’

When they do what I say, we’re all equally gobsmacked.

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